We have finally been busy around here. Camryn is loving dance class, and Dylan and her are both having a great time at AWANA. Soccer starts this weekend....that means we will have something to do every evening other than Thursday and Friday. Being busy definately helps me in a lot of ways. But its also frustrating to try to take all 3 of these kids all over town by myself. But at least I'm too busy and overwhelmed to have time to sit around and get depressed about it.
Tuesday morning while Camryn was at school Dylan and I filled up over 50 water balloons. We surprised Camryn with them after school. I took them outside and they had a blast. I know I haven't been much fun for them since Joe died. He and I used to both do stuff like that with them all the time. But without him here I just haven't had it in me. But the other day I was thinking about all the fun things he would be doing with them if he was here. Its my responsibilty now. He's not here to go outside with them and swing them dangerously high, or give them horse rides, or play hide and seek, or chase them through the house. And for the past 10 months I haven't done a very good job of taking his place. But its time that I did. I have three amazing kids who don't have their daddy here; I'm all they have, and its my responsibility to give them the best life possible....the life they deserve....the life Joe and I dreamed for them.
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