March 2, 2007

I would give anything....

*to feel him touch me one more time

*to feel his hand on my back while I fall asleep

* for him to come up behind me and rub my back while I'm cooking, ironing, or getting dressed

*to feel his hand on my belly

*to hear the kids squeal "DADDY! DADDY!" and run circles through the house when he comes home from work

*to see Camryn on his shoulders

*to sit on the porch and drink a beer with him while he grills

*to see him asleep in the chair while rocking Dylan

*to see Dylan's eyes light up every time "Joe" walks in the room

*to walk in the bathroom and see both kids standing outside the shower door, just waiting for him to get out and play

*to see him swing the kids dangerously high

*for him to walk the kids and me to car when we leave

* to hear him say "I'm on my way home"

*to see Camryn get ridiculously excited about a trip to the dump, or Home Depot, or the auto parts store simply because she's getting to go with daddy

*to see him load the kids up in the "cool truck" for a ride around the block

*to look out the window and see him wash the cars with the kids "help"

*to walk in the room and see him playing with the kids and breaking all my rules

*for him to carry me to bed

*to sit in his lap and hug him while he watches TV

*to hear him laugh hysterically about the Chapelle Show while on the phone with Jimmy

*to hear his truck or motorcyle driving up the street and knowing he's home

*for him to him tell me to quit cleaning and come to bed

*for him draw an elaborate picture on Camryn's magnadoodle while we all sit and watch in amazement

*to help Camryn find him in a game of hide and seek

*to feel his hand on my knee when he's driving

*to see him walk across the parking lot to meet me at my doctor appointments

*for him tell me "Tracy, everything's going to be OK"

*to hear him say "I Love You"