Its been a month since last posting. Today is Super Bowl Sunday. We went to church.Camryn is sick. Dylan fell yesterday and almost bit through his tongue. Great weekend. It would have been a bad weekend regardless, but it makes it worse when things are going so bad, and Joe's not here to help me. But we're making it. Melissa came over after church, brought Camryn some medicine, watched home videos with us, and she GRILLED HAMBURGERS!!! I didn't think I'd ever see this grill used again because that was Joe's job.....I have no idea what to do with a grill! But Melissa pulled it out and grilled us all hamburgers. Joe would be impressed!
I'm glad the holidays are over. Within the time of two months I had to face the death of my husband, Thanksgiving, a benefit, Christmas, our baby's birthday, New Years, and my 18 week ultrasound to find out the sex of our new baby. I couldn't have been more of a basket case. I'm still not great, and still feel like I never will be. But I do appreciate everything people are doing for me. As bad as I feel, I can't imagine how bad I would feel without the love and support of all our friends. As soon as I start to feel like things are spinning out of control and that I can't go on, someone calls and lifts my spirits, or show up with medicine for me/the kids, brings dinner, or helps me with something around the house. And it brings me back from the dark place I've been, at least temporarily.
The day after Joe died someone said something that I try to remember. I made a comment to Keith about how many friends Joe had, and he said "we're not just Joe's friends, we're you're friends too". That means a lot to me, and I know how much it would mean to Joe. I just wonder if he knew what great friends "we" had? I hope so.
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